Total pages in book: 102
Estimated words: 100225 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 501(@200wpm)___ 401(@250wpm)___ 334(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 100225 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 501(@200wpm)___ 401(@250wpm)___ 334(@300wpm)
“You are, too,” he says, and he’s right. I am. So, I nod and walk away. I know eventually T and I will be okay, but I’m not sure we’ll ever be as close as we once were. Maybe the blame of that lies at my feet solely—maybe the two of us have just changed. I won’t pretend it doesn’t hurt that my little brother is probably closer to King these days. I have no idea what to do with any of it, so I push it to the back of my mind. I need to concentrate on Thea. I’m going to fight to get her back. I can’t let her go.
I won’t.
Chapter 45
Thea
Two Weeks Later
God, I miss him.
I close my eyes and lay back on my pillow. I’m in my childhood room and it’s a place that always brought me comfort. It isn’t doing that now. I’m miserable. Mom and Dad are both trying to talk to me. Oddly enough, my mom thinks I should forget about Dom, and my dad is urging me to talk to him. I would have totally thought it would be the other way around.
I’m trying to avoid everyone. That includes my big brother—who is totally team Dom. The thing is, I don’t even think Dom is in the wrong. I just don’t think I’m strong enough to live my life with Gabby trying to cause trouble every single day.
“You look like a woman in deep thought,” Nicole murmurs. I look up and realize I never closed my damn door. I always do that. I’m kicking my own ass for forgetting now. In my defense, my room is part of the attic. It has been converted to a giant bedroom and I love it. Skylar threw fits all the time because she wanted it. Too bad for her I claimed it before she was born, and I never relinquished control—even after I moved out.
My gaze follows Nicole as she enters the room carrying this enormous bouquet of sunflowers and lilies. She takes them over to my large windowsill, putting them down before making her way back to me.
“It’s a side-effect of being involved with a Savage Brothers member, I guess,” I half-joke.
“Ain’t that the truth,” Nicole agrees, sitting lightly on the side of my bed. When she looks down at me, the sadness in her eyes makes me hurt even more, if that’s possible. If anyone could understand my misery at the moment, I know it’s her. I imagine that should bring me comfort, but it just makes me hurt for her. I don’t want anyone to endure the pain I’m feeling and in a lot of ways, it’s worse for Nicole. She’s dealing with a grown man—a man who is proof that her husband had another woman in his life before her. That’s not earth shattering, I guess. It would, however, be a huge stab in the heart to learn after building a life together. I sigh. Oh hell, it sucks no matter what the circumstances are.
“I guess I don’t need to ask who the flowers are from,” I mutter. I look around the room and there are five beautiful vases full of flowers. There’s more than that downstairs. Dom has been sending flowers every day for two weeks. They’re beautiful. At first, I refused them, but I got to where I couldn’t do that. I love Dom. In my heart, I’m not sure I can let him go.
“You don’t. I know everything is a mess right now, but Dom loves you, Thea. He’s not going to just let you go without a fight.”
I nod. I can’t argue and I don’t really want him to give up on me, so I say nothing. I push my thoughts away and try to concentrate on the here and now. “Did you need something?” I ask.
“I was just checking on you. Your mother said you were nauseous this morning and went back to bed.”
“Yeah. I’ve been that way for the last week. I think it’s a combination of nerves and stress. I don’t know. I could even be coming down with something,” I mutter, not able to drum up the nerve to care. Life has kind of lost its color for me at the moment. I’m not sure it will ever come back. I’ve been going around half dead since the day I left mine and Dom’s house.
“Have you thought about the possibility that you could be pregnant, honey?” Nicole asks and my heart flip-flops in my chest. I immediately shake my head in denial. “That would be the worst thing that could happen.”
“I don’t think it would be at all. You’d make a great mother and believe it or not, Dom will be a great father. He’s always tried to shield me and his brother from everything. It comes naturally to him.”