Total pages in book: 75
Estimated words: 71701 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 359(@200wpm)___ 287(@250wpm)___ 239(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 71701 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 359(@200wpm)___ 287(@250wpm)___ 239(@300wpm)
Air whooshes from his lungs and when he catches his breath, I hear that laughter again, a high-pitched sound. “There he is!”
My fist meets his gut, and he doubles over with a grunt. “Let’s see you fight me, you fucking bastard. Or don’t you dare to fight someone who is your equal in size and strength?”
He raises his head, that grin gone, his blue eyes almost black. “Oh, no, brother. I dare.” He charges me, screaming, and I see too late the wooden paddle he must have grabbed off the wall at his back as he brings it down across the side of my head with a force that makes my brain rattle.
I stumble backward and he comes at me again. My vision is double, but I bend to tackle him knocking him to the ground.
“I’m going to kill you,” I tell him, smashing his wrist, throwing the paddle from his grip.
“I have no doubt,” he manages as I rain blows down on his face again and again and again. Blood splatters across my cheeks, my eyes. It blurs my vision and I taste the coppery tang of it on my lip. Theron’s face is slowly becoming unrecognizable but then I hear a moan. Mercedes.
I stop, turn to her. Her limp body is still flopped over the bench. But she’s waking. And she can’t see me like this.
“Mercedes!” I stagger to my feet. My knuckles are raw, my knees hurt, and the room spins so I have to grab the corner of a nearby table to steady myself. I look down at my brother who lies unmoving in a bloody heap. He may be dead for all I know but he groans when I trip over him, not yet steady from the hit to my head.
He’s not dead. Not yet. Good. I’ll do the job properly later. First, I need to tend to Mercedes. I need to get to her.
But just as I reach her, she’s gone. Like every other time.
“Judge. Judge, wake up.”
I grab the hand that’s shaking me and leap from my seat.
Lois gasps, her eyes huge. I blink, and look at her face. Then down at how I’m holding her.
“You were having a nightmare,” she says as I release her. I step away in shame.
“I’m sorry. I’m sorry if I hurt you.” Fuck. I gave in to the monster inside me when I beat Theron. Will it no longer sleep? Is it hungry for more now that it’s had a taste?
“It’s alright. You didn’t hurt me.”
She tries to give me a reassuring smile, fails, and turns her worried gaze to Mercedes.
“Has it begun?” she asks. She doesn’t have to say what. The nightmares. They're a nightly occurrence. She’s asking if they’ve begun today.
“Not yet.”
She glances at the nearly untouched tray on the table. She brought my dinner in a few hours ago. Although I’m not hungry I forced down a little food.
“You need to eat a full meal and get some rest. You can’t keep going like this. I can spend the night with her.”
“I’m fine.”
She watches me and I know what she’s thinking. Is it safe for me to be around Mercedes? What if I grab her like I did Lois? I’ve been reliving that night just like Mercedes is every time I close my eyes and given the exhaustion, I am not myself.
“I won’t hurt her,” I tell Lois in a voice I don’t recognize.
“I know you won’t,” she says after too long.
Jesus. God. Is it better if I’m away from her?
Mercedes moans then. Says my name. It’s the first time she’s called for me since she’s been in here.
Lois and I both look at her and something blooms in my chest at the sound. Because she’s turning her face into the pillow where I usually lie beside her. Is she searching for me?
“You won’t hurt her,” Lois reassures me, a hand on my arm. “Go to her. She needs you.”
Mercedes sleeps a little better when I’m beside her. It’s some comfort to me, that knowledge. When the battle inside her mind begins, I draw her to me, hold her against my chest. She fights at first, opening the scratches that barely have time to scab over from the previous night. I don’t restrain her, but I do hold on to her. And then she settles and sleeps. Sometimes she cries. Just quiet, hopeless sobs. Those episodes don’t last long, thank goodness. I don’t think I could bear them if they did. Through it all, I just hold her.
I push my hand through my hair and scrub my face. Lois is right. I need to sleep. Tomorrow during the day. Right now, Mercedes is my priority.
“Go get some rest, Lois.”
She nods. She’s tired too. “You come get me if she needs me.” Lois has moved into a guest room a few doors down. She lives in a cottage on the property but since the incident, she moved herself into the main house to be available at all hours.