Total pages in book: 79
Estimated words: 76242 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 381(@200wpm)___ 305(@250wpm)___ 254(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 76242 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 381(@200wpm)___ 305(@250wpm)___ 254(@300wpm)
So that meant I had to ignore the whining snickers that he was making too.
“But if you wanted to have playtime with your friend or model with the other pups, I wouldn’t object.” I’d just be in charge. “I’d take good care of my pup.”
And watch him every step of the way.
That seemed to be the point where Ender the pup faded and Ender the overthinking sub came to the surface because he rolled over in my lap and curled up like a person again. I took the hint and took off his hood, kissing his head as I apologized. “I’m sorry for distracting you with people things.”
That got a giggle out of him, but he shook his head as he snuggled back against me, seemingly in no rush to get the rest of his gear off. “No, I had fun and I want to talk to you before my brain starts working and I realize I’m talking to you.”
Only he could say that with a straight face and think it was perfectly logical.
“Okay.” But I let him be delusional as I wrapped my arms around him and kissed his head again. “What were you thinking?”
I wasn’t going to ease our way into it because that seemed like a good way for him to find his embarrassment before I found answers.
Nuzzling against me, still looking like his pup side was very close to the surface, Ender sighed as I squeezed him tight. “Playing would be fun but I don’t know what everything else would look like.”
It was a wonderfully vague answer that gave me just enough information to confuse me.
“Everything else meaning what a photo shoot would look like or everything else meaning being naked and rolling around together?” When all I got was a sigh and he tucked his face closer to my neck, I took that as a both kind of answer. “Come on. You have to tell me. I won’t get upset.”
“But we’re partners now.” Ender seemed to think that should’ve cleared up a lot but I wasn’t sure what he meant.
“We’re partners now, so you shouldn’t do the modeling, or we’re partners, so you shouldn’t be rolling around with a pup friend?” When he went still when I said rolling around, I knew we’d found at least one worry we needed to clear up. “That one?”
He nodded and one mitt-covered hand came up and started petting my chest. “Yes.”
A word too.
Okay, so this was important to him.
“Would you like to know my limits on pup time? With other people around, I mean.” I did my best to keep my voice relaxed and kissed his head as I leaned back against the couch. “I don’t have to think about that. I’ve already been going through it in my head.”
“You have?” That seemed to have surprised him more than the actual topic itself.
“Yes.” Hadn’t he been thinking about it? “I wanted to make sure I knew what would make me uncomfortable.”
It seemed logical to me but it took Ender a second to relax again. “Yes, I’d like to hear your limits, please.”
Even more words.
“I want pup time—however that looks—to be something we do together if anyone else is involved.” I kept going when I wasn’t sure if that’d made enough sense. “I’m not saying you can’t be a pup on your own. That’d be too controlling. But what I’m saying is that if you’re going to have pup time with another friend, I want to be there with you.”
When he nodded slowly and I could feel the tension in his muscles easing, I continued. “I don’t want anyone else getting you ready without me there. I’m not saying Eli couldn’t help adjust something in a shoot, but when it comes to getting you ready, that’s my job.”
Full stop.
No negotiations.
“Yes, you’re my Dom and my Handler. That’s your job.” Ender seemed completely confident as he responded, giving me more confidence as I continued.
“I’m comfortable with you being a happy naked pup wherever it feels right to you. I don’t have an issue with someone seeing my boy or my pup, but again, that’s something I’m there for. You’re my pup and I want to keep you safe as well as know what’s happening.” Brushing my lips over his forehead, I tried to find the right words so I didn’t confuse either of us.
“You’d be very upset if you humped someone else and then later realized you had to tell me about it.” When he went still and groaned, I had to smile. “Yeah, can you imagine how hard it would be to tell me you orgasmed on another pup? You’d have to use words.”
Lots of them.
As his sounds grew more dramatic, I had to fight off laughter. “I have no desire to give you a heart attack.”
“Ugh, that’s just…it’d be…” Sighing, Ender shook his head. “No, we do things together so I don’t have to talk about it later. Got it and completely agree.”