Total pages in book: 83
Estimated words: 79148 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 396(@200wpm)___ 317(@250wpm)___ 264(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 79148 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 396(@200wpm)___ 317(@250wpm)___ 264(@300wpm)
Tobias went on for hours, banging her well into the night.
Who could go do that for hours on end?
I’ve never heard of anyone fucking for so long. Unless they did it multiple times.
I swallow hard as images flash through my mind of Eli touching my breasts, fondling my pussy, and the aching need inside to be taken and used.
Why would I ever want this? Why would I ever claim to like it? I don’t understand what’s wrong with me.
Unless … he’s right.
Unless … I do, deep down, want to actually be punished.
I shake my head and mutter, “No, no, no.”
It just can’t be true. I would never … right? I’m a good girl. He even calls me an angel. I’ve never done anything bad in my life. At least, not as far as I know.
There are just … hours missing from my mind.
Hours I can’t seem to get back, no matter how hard I try.
Only two things are going to help me now. Either find out what I did by talking to Eli and convince him to tell me with whatever means necessary… or try any way to make a grand escape out of this place. And is that really a choice?
Biting my lip, I force myself to get up from the floor and approach the wall. I put my ear against it, but no sounds are audible. It’s like the whole place has gone completely silent.
Then I hear a whimper.
Anna?
I hurry to the little opening underneath the vent and shove aside the furniture I’d put back in case someone came into my room and saw. I go to my knees and whisper, “Anna?”
The only sound is my own heartbeat.
Then some rustles as the curtain is shoved aside.
“Amelia …” she mutters.
“Is he gone?” I ask.
She nods. Then she starts to bawl. “I’m sorry.”
“Hey, ” I reply, wondering how she’s doing. “It’s okay. You don’t have to apologize.”
“I said something I shouldn’t have,” she says.
“It’s not your fault,” I reply.
When she cries even harder, I slam the wall.
“Listen to me, what they’re doing to you is not your fault. Do you hear me?”
“But it is!” she yelps, sniffling. “I begged him to.”
I pause and lean back, completely confused. Why would she ask that? Who would want this? And then I remember … I did the same thing. It’s so sophisticated, this scheme, that I don’t even notice it happening right in front of me.
“He came into my room and made me talk until I gave him what he wanted …”
“Sex?” I ask.
“The truth,” she replies. “And I couldn’t stop myself. Once he started touching me, I just lost it. I completely lost myself.” She sighs out loud. “I don’t understand,” she mutters, breaking out in tears again. “Why did I say all those things out loud?”
“Shh … it’s okay,” I say. “Don’t cry. You did what you had to do to survive.”
“No, that’s not why I let him,” she retorts, sighing. “I did it because … because …” She hiccups and shifts on the floor. “Oh, my God, look at me. I’m a mess.”
“I’m sorry, I made everything worse,” I say, wishing I could hug her.
I can’t imagine what’s going through her mind right now. So much guilt from all that pressure. The desire to escape is so strong she’d do anything to get out, even let Tobias fuck her. And I don’t blame her. I’m on the verge of doing the same thing with Eli.
“I can’t believe I did all of those things,” she says.
“You made the right choice for you,” I reply.
“No, I didn’t,” she suddenly barks. “Don’t you see? I deserved this!”
“What?” I frown. “Stop telling yourself that.”
“We ALL deserve it!” she yells, gazing at me with her tearstained eyes. “Why can’t you see that?”
I don’t understand what’s gotten into her. “No, this is what they do to you. They trick you into believing their lies.”
Her eyes widen. “NO!”
In shock, I lean away, terrified to look at her when she’s so angry.
“Tobias cares about me. The only liar here is me,” Anna says in a single breath.
I lean over again, but the curtain is suddenly swathed over the hole, blocking my view.
“Anna?” I mutter. “Anna? Talk to me.”
“I can’t. He told me this is how it’s supposed to go,” she replies.
“Tell me why,” I respond.
“No. He forbade me from talking to anyone about this. My sin is my own to carry.”
I hear footsteps moving away from the hole, and then nothing.
“Anna?” I call out, but there’s no response.
I bang on the walls, but there’s no one banging on them back. No matter how many times I call out her name, she refuses to come and speak with me. And it hurts. So much that it makes tears well up in my eyes again.
He got to her. Just like that. He fucked her until she caved and gave them everything they wanted. Was it even true, what she told him?