Total pages in book: 28
Estimated words: 27008 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 135(@200wpm)___ 108(@250wpm)___ 90(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 27008 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 135(@200wpm)___ 108(@250wpm)___ 90(@300wpm)
Shaking my head, I tried not to laugh at his drama as he searched the room again. “And stop looking around. He’s not going to be here for a few more minutes.”
I’d wanted a chance to set up the playroom we’d reserved for the evening before Joseph arrived, and I’d finished earlier than I’d expected. But having a few minutes to sit and enjoy the atmosphere had been nice since I’d been doing a good job of keeping my nerves under control until Ben had arrived.
The Dom in question looked slightly sheepish as he turned back to me. “I should not be the excited one here.”
“I didn’t say I wasn’t excited.” Part of me simply felt that after months of talking to Joseph, I knew him well enough that I wasn’t nervous. That didn’t mean, however, that I wasn’t excited. I was going to see my boy for the first time. Of course I was excited.
Joseph was the only one who needed to see it, though.
I was a more private person than most at the club, so putting my emotions on display wasn’t something I was comfortable with. “You’re like a proud parent watching his son date for the first time.”
Ben shrugged, not bothering to deny the comparison. “Conner’s kind of taken Joseph under his wing and they email and text a lot. Conner thinks he needs to relax more and I think his worries are rubbing off on me.”
Worries?
“What is Conner concerned with?” There was a lot I didn’t know about Joseph yet, but I hoped that tonight we’d start closing some of those knowledge gaps.
“Nothing specific, he just thinks Joseph works too much and is too stressed.” Ben chuckled dryly. “Like half the people in here. This city doesn’t exactly attract laid-back people.”
His pointed glance said I was lumped in with the workaholic, overstressed group. “I’ll have you know I’ve cut my schedule back significantly. I think I’ve taken more time off than you have lately.”
He grinned, enjoying getting a rise out of me. “I’ll give you that.”
“Maybe now that Joseph and I are meeting in person it will give him an excuse to relax more.” Not that I was confident about that. Getting the man to set work to the side and find time to be little had been more difficult than I’d expected.
When we’d first started talking, I assumed his lack of focus on his submissive side was because he was inexperienced or nervous about being little, but no, he was just that obsessed with everything else in his life.
He pushed aside his needs until they were too distracting and that was when he went looking for a Daddy to scene with.
Just scene with.
I’d had several long-term partners over the years, but in the past, my schedule hadn’t been easy to work around. Relationships needed time and attention or they faded. That was part of the reason I’d been working on scaling back over the past year. When I met the right person, I wanted to be able to have time to spend with him.
And I thought Joseph might be the right person.
I just wasn’t sure if he was willing to make the same commitment to time and to a relationship in general that I was. Taking him away from his job or making him my full-time sub wasn’t what I wanted, but I wouldn’t be relegated to the back burner any longer.
Over the past few months, we’d talked about everything from favorite movies to what we thought about the lifestyle but not about the future or practical things. I had a feeling we’d both realized that until we met and saw the chemistry between us, we couldn’t talk about more.
But the idea of meeting seemed to make him nervous because some of the excuses he’d come up with for why we couldn’t meet yet had been curious to say the least. I’d been patient, though, and it looked that was finally paying off.
There had been a few men Joseph had done scenes with in the past, but he’d said it’d never felt right to go further with them, and he’d hinted that some had gone poorly. However, he was confident about his little side and even had several little friends that he managed to see on a regular basis which made me feel more confident as well.
That was part of what had made me willing to push back my frustration with the strictly online start to a relationship. His self-assurance when he talked about his little side was also attractive and made me more comfortable with thinking about the future.
Shy littles were cute but there was something about confidence that just pulled me in.
I just hoped that his confidence online wasn’t all for show and that he was as open to a relationship as he’d said he was. I had a feeling I had one chance to make an impression on Joseph or he’d go back to work and wouldn’t surface for a few more months when the itch to surrender got to be too big to deny.