Total pages in book: 78
Estimated words: 74652 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 373(@200wpm)___ 299(@250wpm)___ 249(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 74652 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 373(@200wpm)___ 299(@250wpm)___ 249(@300wpm)
When I wasn’t panicking, I was cautiously optimistic about the whole talking and going out on a date part. Austin wouldn’t let anyone take me out who wasn’t nice and he hadn’t tried to chase Ansel away. That meant a lot, but I wasn’t sure if it would help me to open up enough to show Master Ansel that I wasn’t just a painfully shy little.
I was also an awkwardly shy dirty sub.
Yep, it was going to be fine.
Oh goodness, somehow he was right there beside us.
But he was so sweet. He paused just long enough to make sure I turned to see him before he kept coming over. “Good evening, Charlie…or should I call you something else tonight?”
Slut would’ve been lovely, but he hadn’t really seen that side of me yet, so it probably wouldn’t be appropriate. He’d get confused. That would only make it more awkward.
“I…” Words. I was a grown-up sub and I could use words to show Master Ansel I wanted to be there. “I’m Charlie when I’m little or big around a friend, and I like the way you say it.”
Oh fuck.
Had that sounded stupid?
Would he think I had a lot of friends?
I didn’t want him to think I was an idiot or give him the wrong impression of my social life.
Austin was just staring like he was studying me for a science experiment. That wasn’t helpful at all and Master Ansel was just smiling. I tried to swallow past the panic growing in my throat but it wasn’t really helping.
“I think of you as Charlie, so is it okay if I keep calling you that even though you’re not little tonight?” Master Ansel was looking…pleased?
He liked calling me Charlie?
Nodding, I knew I had to keep from freezing up again but it was difficult. “Yes, that’s okay.”
Words.
I could give Master Ansel words.
He liked words. They made him smile and look very proud of something…maybe himself? Doms seemed to find reasons to be proud of the oddest things. But I’d made him happy, so that was good. Yes. I could give him words.
“You know what else is okay, Charlie?” Master Ansel inched closer, ignoring Austin’s low, slightly angry sound, which made him either brave or reckless. When I shook my head, he gave me a teasing conspiratorial look and dropped his voice. “It’s okay if you decide to be little at some point in our date. I want you to just be yourself.”
“I…” He was so nice. “I want to be big. I want to…I think you like it when I talk.”
I sounded like an idiot…but he didn’t seem to mind?
“I do. I won’t downplay that, but I also like just being around you and hanging out.” He seemed so sincere I felt the panic recede as he smiled at me. “If we end up coloring and watching movies later, I’ll still consider that a good date.”
“Thank you.” I wasn’t sure what else to say, and while my brain was scrambling to come up with something, Austin sighed.
“I can’t decide if you two are the cutest things I’ve ever seen or if you severely need a push in the naughty direction.” He was glaring at both of us like we needed to go in the corner. “Go sit and talk, and Ansel, cuddle him. He will be happier in your arms. Make him feel safe and he’ll open up easier.”
Turning in a huff, Austin started mumbling something about needing a fort as he charged across the room toward the area where they did the scenes. I had no desire to follow him there but neither did Master Ansel, based on how he was looking at me.
He seemed to think I was nice too.
“Is it rude to say I’m so glad you’re not as dramatic as he is?”
Probably, but it was funny, and I had to hold back a laugh. “Maybe just a little but it’s understandable.”
Ha, another sentence.
I was doing great.
Oh, he was holding his hand out.
“Let’s go sit down in the corner and spend some time together.” He waited there like he didn’t have a care in the world, hand out confidently.
I kind of liked confident.
It took entirely too long to make my hand obey and reach out, but eventually I did it. He was gentle and careful but not too much as he kept his grip firm. “And at the risk of angering the grand omega over there, you don’t have to cuddle me if you don’t want to, but I would love to have you in my lap if you’d be comfortable like that.”
I couldn’t decide if I wanted to laugh or just explode in an orgasm.
Both?
He was so big and he wanted to hold me.
Words weren’t quite working, so I nodded and really hoped that would be enough.
Oh, it was.
He smiled even bigger. “Thank you for trusting me, sweet boy.”