Total pages in book: 55
Estimated words: 51765 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 259(@200wpm)___ 207(@250wpm)___ 173(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 51765 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 259(@200wpm)___ 207(@250wpm)___ 173(@300wpm)
I didn’t know where the fuck to start but she saved me the trouble. “Why did you kiss me?” she asked the question but I could see how much it had taken for her to get the words out.
“I needed to see what I was getting.” She gave me that female look that said she didn’t know what the fuck I was talking about, but if she was looking to me for help, she was shit outta luck because I didn’t know what the fuck either.
“I don’t think I understand.”
“That makes two of us; look I need to ask you some questions just answer them as honestly as you can okay.”
She nodded for me to continue and I chose my next words carefully. This was my first time at this particular rodeo and I had no idea what the fuck I was doing.
I had the end goal in mind, but knew there was a lot that could go wrong if I didn’t handle this right.
I didn’t like accepting the fact that I was willing to do anything to achieve my ends, I didn’t want to become the man that I was hunting, so I had to know before I made a move.
“Were you ever in love with someone, shit, that came out all wrong? Is there someone that you’re interested in, I don’t know, romantically?” that sounded better I guess.
“No, why?”
“I’m asking the questions, you’ll get your turn when I’m done. So there isn’t some guy somewhere who thinks he’s gonna have you?”
“No, I went to an all-girls boarding school, they were very strict. We weren’t allowed to fraternize with the opposite sex, and though I’m sure some of the other girls snuck out sometimes I never did.
Then when I came home on break, my dad would hardly let me out of the house, so there was never really any chance of that happening.”
“Good, um, so that’s taken care of, next question. You said earlier that you’d thought you were gonna go off to college after boarding school is that like a lifelong dream or something?”
What the fuck do you care? I don’t, but I cant be that guy who would just destroy someone else’s dreams without giving it some thought. My conscience can be a bit of a bitch.
“Not really no, I mean college was just the obvious next move after doing so well in school, but I can’t say that I had always had dreams of going off to college.
When I was growing up, before all this, I always thought I’d get married and have babies; that was my dream. Then after boarding school and I got to see how some of the other girls lived, I started dreaming too you know.”
“I see, but you won’t lose your fucking mind or anything like that if you don’t get to go right?”
“I don’t think so, and besides, there’s no money to go now anyway, so there’s no point in us even discussing it.”
That seems practical enough I guess, but I’ve never known a practical female a day in my life so I’m thinking she’s full of shit. Only time will tell.
“So you have no plans is that it?”
“Not that I know of, do you mind telling me what this is all about?”
“Do you have a favorite dress in that suitcase your mother brought you?”
Now she was thinking I’d lost my mind if the look she gave me was anything to go by. “I think so why?”
“You’re gonna need it later, you can go now.” I dismissed her by going back to what I was doing before she came in.
She left and I went back to sorting shit out to make sure I had my ass covered as well as my people.
If I make this move I will be bringing a shitload of heat down on my head and on this place. I’m not worried about myself but there are people here that might not want that kind of heat.
Fuck if I was going to ask permission to do what the fuck I want, but I don’t want any headaches. That’s why I was getting rid of anyone who might prove to be a pain in my ass before we go to lockdown.
I had to go make the final preparations for a fucking siege. In war you prepare for any and all contingencies and I could do no less.
I have to think outside the box and be two steps ahead of my enemy. So far I’ve been winning against him, even though he himself has remained out of reach.
But I have a feeling that this was going to be the catalyst. This shit could very well bring everything to a head.
Instead of asking any of the guys for their help I decided to do shit myself, but I was gonna need a little help from somewhere.